Happy 5 Year Anniversary

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Well it has been 5 years since Ryan and I were married in Nauvoo on May 24, 2003. I always pictured the 5th anniversary to be a big one and we would go on a cruise or maybe Hawaii something exciting. The past five years of marriage we have moved three times on our anniversary. This time our move was to Phoenix. Not really a cool vacation but I guess a great start to a new part of our life together.

As we drove down I was reflecting on our life together and the things that we have done in the past five years. We have been blessed in so many ways and I am so thankful. We have had the jobs that have given us the funds to afford for Ryan to go to school and also for me to get my masters and we did not need to take out any loans. We were blessed to be able to buy our own condo in Vegas. I feel that the job that Ryan took in SLC working for Firetrol gave him the skills that he needed to prepare him for the job he got in Vegas. Which then lead to this partnership and a great opprotunity for us here in Phoenix to make a good living and for me to stay home one day.

The past five years has been hard on me as I have waited to have a family. I have watched many of my friends have kids and start their families and have watched the joy they have. I have watched Ryan's two younger brothers who got married after us have kids and have tried to be happy for them and shown support for their time. I have never wanted to be the "career" woman. I was always so against that and thought that being a mom was the most important thing and that is what you do. It has been humbling for me as I have become that woman I never wanted to be but also have realized that for whatever reason I needed to be. I have never wanted to have the best things or be "financially" ready because I know that you can never be 100%. I have always believed that if you are doing what is right and keeping the commandments the Lord would be there. There were many times that I thought this must be the time and then understood it not to be and have continued to patiently keep waiting for my time. I pray that now Ryan is done with school, has a good job, and we are more financially set maybe just maybe it can be my turn to be a mom and enjoy what we are meant to have here on this earth.

The past 5 years have been a great experience. I wouldn't trade the time that I have had with Ryan as just the two of us. It has been such a good thing for the both of us. I love Ryan more than ever and have learned how to make him feel like he is my one an only and not always expecting the compliments from him. We have grown together in the church. He was my best friend when we got married and our relationship is so much deeper now and I am so thankful. I look forward to five more years up to eternity. I love you Baby!!

Here are some pictures of our engagments, I think we both have changed in just 5 years.

Comments

Coby, Lynette and Kids said…
Your pictures are so cute! I didn't even know they were 5 yrs. ago. I think we need to talk, I will email you my number and when you get a chance to have a good talk call me. Reading your comments made me want to cry. Trying to get pregnant is so hard, you are an amazing person and have always had so much faith. You will be the most wonderful mother, regardless if it comes from you or not. Never give up! Love you and Happy Anniversary!
May 30, 2008 at 4:00 PM
The Webber's said…
I know that you will be a mom someday and be terrific at it! I wish that I could say I had the faith you do! Congrats on 5 years!!! Maybe next year you can go on a fun trip instead of move!
May 30, 2008 at 8:31 PM
Drake Family said…
I can't believe it has been that long for you! Crazy! I am sure it has been a good thing that you and Ryan have had these past few years together...once you become a mom you will be one forever. It will happen for you and when it does, I better be one of the first to know! :) I love you and hope you are liking your knew home and life in Pheonix.
May 30, 2008 at 9:13 PM
Hayley Nelson Potter said…
I cant beleive it has been 5 years, where does the time go?! I can't imagine not being able to have kids when you want them. My sister tried for 6 years and was ready for invetro(sp) and found our right before her appointment she was pregnant. Now she has 3 beautiful kids. It was such a struggle for her and for us to watch but such a blessing now. Good luck with it all and keep me posted. Your move sounds exciting, jelous that you will hae nice weather year round. Happy Anniversary, I hope you had a fun day. Lots of love!
June 1, 2008 at 6:40 AM
Julie said…
Happy Anniversary! I enjoyed your sweet comments and your testimony. You are an amazing woman and your trials have only made you stronger! Love you!
June 1, 2008 at 6:11 PM
Robbs said…
Happy 5! As you heard, Renata was so happy to talk to you (just like her mommmy). Karmann, you just wait till the pregnancy test (tested by the test that can tell you are pregnant before it happens)---you will be showered by so much love and support from all of us that you won't have to buy anything until your baby is 5!
June 9, 2008 at 5:49 PM
Becky aka tata! said…
WOW!!! The tears are flowing big time. I miss you so much. I know how deep the feelings to be a mom run and I know you will one day be a FABULOUS mom! There is SO much going on with "puppet" and "corky", some good!!
LOVE YA BUNCHES!!!!
June 21, 2008 at 7:58 PM
Jo Lynn said…
Wow, five years! Thats so wonderful and I feel like it was just yesterday that you two were cuddling in our apartment in Salt Lake. I know your day will come and when it does you will make the most amazing mom every! All this time you've had, it's only preparing you for whats to come. I love you and I love your blog and love that we can keep in touch this way.
June 25, 2008 at 1:08 PM
D'On Marx said…
Happy belated anniversary! Cute pictures! Good luck with having babies. It's rough, I know! A woman's body is just so dang difficult. I'm sure Heavenly Father will bless you greatly for your patience.
July 1, 2008 at 7:10 PM
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