EMULATE the SUNFLOWER

This is my Senior year picture. It is 20 years old this past May. I am 37 years old right now. I will be 38 on September 5th. As I look back at my life right now to that time; it is NOTHING what I thought it was going to be. Is it ever though? Is it ever like we had thought it would go when we were in middle school or high school? NOPE! I don't think I have ever met anyone who put out on paper what they would like to be, have, and do by 40 and successfully achieved it all. Life is just not like that. Ever since I was a little girl my dream was to be a mom. As a five year old I carried my baby dolls all around with me and it was a passion from the beginning. As I got older I surrounded myself around children. I loved being with them. I couldn’t wait till I was old enough to babysit. I started babysitting when I was 11 years old and I continued to spend my free time all throughout high school around children. I was the baby whisperer. I could rock and hold a baby for hours...

I wanted to take time today to tell the background of why I chose EMULATE THE SUNFLOWER for my blog site. The word EMULATE means: to imitate, copy, mirror, echo, follow, or model of oneself. I think it as "to LIKE SOMEONE or SOMETHING." The SUNFLOWER has always been my favorite flower. There is something about the sunflower that has always resonated in me. It is big, bright, happy, and it is yellow! My bedroom growing up was red with yellow sunflowers as a border. It was my happy place. As I have gotten older the sunflower has taken on a whole different meaning to me. I learned that a sunflower is a great example to all of us. It emulates how we should look at life and how we should be. Sunflowers stand tall. They can grow up to 16 feet tall. They are strong. They tower through the darkness. How do they becomes such strong flowers? They always face the sun! They follow the sun from the moment they are starting to grow. They turn to the sun for light, strength,...

Hello everyone, My name is Karmann Wennerlind. Thank you for taking the time to be here, read, and follow along with me as I share some deep thoughts and experiences on hard topics. I am not a professional, expert, or claim to know everything. I am just a girl who had a dream starting from the young age of 5 and it didn't go the way I had thought. I am just a girl who in the past 15 years has experienced hard issues that come with unexplained infertility. I am just a girl who has experienced 13 miscarriages. I am just a girl who knows the process of IVF both failed and successful. I am just a girl who experienced a failed adoption. I am just a girl who suffers from depression and has great anxieties. I am just a girl who has struggled to find my self worth. I am just a girl who has been beaten down, felt alone, and felt forsaken at times. I am just a girl who wants to share to the world that although I have been through all of these hard things; I have stood tall through it a...