Reflecting
I know that this was a MAJOR post night but after a long trip home and a week full of memories and being with family I had to post my feelings as I flew home on Monday. I was looking out the window and noticed the beautiful clouds among the sky and then looking down could see the ground. I couldnt help but think that the view I was seeing must be some what like Heavenly Father's view as he looks down upon me and you and watches and guides us to be the daughter/sons of god that he wants us to be.
My highschool experience wasnt the best and I had to deal with loosing friends due to me not drinking and smoking. I never was asked to dances by guys because I wasnt going to party before the dance and then I wasnt going to spread my legs later that after the dance. I felt at times so alone and a weirdo as I was one of just a few Mormons in my class and highschool. As I saw many people that I grew up with and guys that I knew in highschool this weekend I was quite surprised to what they had to say to me.
The first questions out of their mouth to me was 1. That is water in your cup right? You still dont drink right??!! 2. No smoking, caffeine, and swearing right?? and 3. You are still the same Karmann that I knew in Highschool right, the same strong mormon?? Of course I am I would say back to them and then a smile would come across their face. They then would say Oh good, cause I would be so upset if you were someone different. I couldnt beleive it!! They then would say, I admired you so much in highschool for your standards. I admire you even more now for being the same person as you were back then. I was in shock. I would have never thought that they had felt that way especially how I was treated and looked at.
I walked away thankful for being strong and being able to be that example of our Savior and that I know I was strong during those times because I had Heavenly Father watching over me and helping me be the person he needed me to be. As I wait with faith for other things to fall into place for me, I am so thankful for the trials and the things that I have experienced in my life for it has given me a greater appreciation of the Plan of Salvation and how this truly is a test and we are here to prove ourselves worthy to return to him.
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I must say I LOVE who you are and what you stand for. I love the spirit that fills my soul when I read your words.
LOVE YA BUNCHES!!!!
It sounds like you had a fun trip! See ya soon!
That is the greatest city in the world.
Thanks for checking out our blog. I know you and Ryan will be blessed with children soon.
I haven't been to your site in a while, or anyone's for that matter..sorry. Where to begin? Can I just tell you how much I love you? You are such an inspiration to everyone and I wish I can be as strong as you are someday. You were such a good roomie, even when you SMEARED YOUR HAIR ALL OVER THE SHOWER. haha. Anyway...enough cheese, that is ore your thing anyway! That is crazy that you went to your 10 year reunion! Has it really been that long and are we really that old now? Mine was this summer too but I decided not to go because I knew it would be a bunch of drunks who wouldn't even remember that I was there. Too bad Ryan couldn't have been there with you. Anyway babe, I bet I could keep commenting but I better leave room for others! :) Love ya babe!!!