A quiet support



At the end of July 2007 I was visiting my parents in Utah and I was counciled by my dad through a blessing to start writing in my journal. I have done journal writing off and on through out my life and had not been doing it since college. The thought had crossed my mind a few times before my dad had told me to do it but I had shrugged it off as I'll start next week and you know how that goes! :)

Well I am one to always do what I am asked because I always fear of the outcome if I dont and started writing in my journal since then. I tried the goal for a little bit to do it once a week. It became mainly Monday or Sundays since I could have some alone time due to Ryan watching sports. I would be good some weeks and the at times it would be a month. I was counciled to write about my feelings, blessing, concerns, and so on and that it would be a great support to me when needed. I thought to myself as I started writing how could this be a support to me?

As I have continued to write in it now over a year and a half I have poured out feelings of sorrow, joy, spiritual experiences, blessings and so on. It has become an anchor in my life. After a few months of writing I go back and read and am amazed on what I wrote and at times feel uplifted to go forward. Over the break of the holidays before I started my new attitude I felt impressed to write my feelings of things in the journal. As I opened up the book to write I opened to an entry of Aug 2008 where I had written about my experiences back home with my dad and mom. As I began to read what I wrote the words that I needed to hear popped out to me. Words of what I needed to have to keep me going forward and having faith. I have had many experiences like this with the BOM but not anywhere else. I was overwhelmed with joy, a thankful heart, and again renewed that he does know me and knows what I need and by writing I was able to be uplifted in times of need. Who would of thought that a journal could be a such a wonderful quiet support! :)

Comments

Jo Lynn said…
Karm, that's incredible! You inspired me to write in mine, I haven't done so since I had Sav. I'm so glad you followed the council of your father and what an inspired man he is! You are always in our prayers, I can't imagine what a struggle you must go through each day. I do know your time will come and I know Heavenly Father knows this as well.
I love your new background and thank you for your sweet comments on my blog, they always make my day.
I've been thinking I need to write more of what I'm going through and not just about what we do each weekend. Blogging is about writing the good and the bad and expressing about our thoughts and you always do such a good job of this. It's so nice to be let into someone else's life. Today I did a post about what's been going on in a personal way and I hope to be more like you! I love you Karm and if I were there I would give you a hug and not let go. :)
D'On Marx said…
That's so neat. It's been so long since I've written in my journal. I thought at one point I could catch up on everything, but that seemed impossible. It's easier to start from that one point and write what you can remember of the past. Anyway, that was kind of random. hehe Hope all is going well with you guys.
Bryn said…
Your kids will love having your legacy and getting to know you through your journals one day. I wish I had that with my mom, you would think I would be doing it for my kids, but I am not. You will be such an awesome mom and I am so glad you have this to help you!! You are so awesome!
kellyjbrown said…
Hey Karmann, I think keeping a journal is a wonderful thing. I keep thinking I need to start! My husbands mother was an avid journaler. She passed away when he was a very young teen. Her journals have been compiled into a hard bound book for each child and it is one of our most prized posessions. It is so amazing for Ben to be able to learn who she was from an adult perspective. Good for you to leave that legacy. I wish I was going to be home tonight but I have YW's on Wednesdays. By the time you finish work next door I will be leaving. We need to figure something else out so we can get together. I thought I had your e-mail but I can't find it in my contacts. Will you call me with it? It will be easier to communicate that way!
kellyjbrown said…
Hey Karmann, I think keeping a journal is a wonderful thing. I keep thinking I need to start! My husbands mother was an avid journaler. She passed away when he was a very young teen. Her journals have been compiled into a hard bound book for each child and it is one of our most prized posessions. It is so amazing for Ben to be able to learn who she was from an adult perspective. Good for you to leave that legacy. I wish I was going to be home tonight but I have YW's on Wednesdays. By the time you finish work next door I will be leaving. We need to figure something else out so we can get together. I thought I had your e-mail but I can't find it in my contacts. Will you call me with it? It will be easier to communicate that way!
Drake Family said…
Karm,
That is great! I use to be so good about writing in my journal (high school days), but haven't FOREVER! I use my blog as my journal which is good for recording day-to-day events with the family, but I should do the journal thing for more church type thoughts, feelings, etc. Thanks for being such a good example and inspiration.
P.S. I am just catching up on your blog (sorry) and noticed you rubbing Ryan's head during your movie. SOOOO JEALOUS! Love ya and miss you!!
Julie said…
What a great support to have! You are so inspiring to me! I haven't written in my journal for over a year - I think I'll try to do it more often now!
Deanna said…
I should write in my journal more often too! That is awesome that it has been able to help you through tough times. Its so great that Heavenly Father loves us enough to inspire others to help us through tough times!

And I owe you big time for the DVD's. I am down to the last 2 discs and I will send them back your way. It's kinda pathetic how into them I get. So when I pick up season 2 and 3 which will be SOON, I'll share!

Oh, and thanks for ringing in January 4th with us! You guys are so fun to hang out with! Hopefully we can hang out again soon!
Love ya!
Drake Family said…
Karm...so inappropriate! LOL Thanks for your comments!! :)
Claire said…
Hey Karmann, thanks for posting this! I keep having this nagging in my mind that I should write in my journal things I've been struggling with lately - esp. earlier today I was trying to talk myself into it, but coming up with a million excuses. So I guess your post was my last kick in the butt about it. I'll just have to do it. Thanks
Tawni Williams said…
Such a good call - I have everyday of my life in highschool on a journal but am depressed I stopped after - you've been a great inspiration to start up again

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