a simple primary song

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When I was little and we had to sing I am a child of God, now this is going to sound bad, but I hated it. I felt like we sang it all the time and I got sick of it. It just shows how when you are little you tend to not really get the meaning of the song and what it really is saying and how really important this song is for each one of us.

A little over a week ago while I was at Young Womens we sang I am a child of God with no piano. All of the girls were in harmony and it touched me as I sang the song and listened to the words and the Chorus hit me so hard! " LEAD ME, GUIDE ME, WALK BESIDE ME, HELP ME FIND THE WAY. TEACH ME ALL THAT I MUST KNOW TO LIVE WITH HIM SOMEDAY."

Things have been tough the past month with getting excited, then bummed, then excited and then another let down and not knowing what is going on and I am finding myself in a whirl wind. That Tuesday was especially hard for me and those words couldnt have been MORE for me. I may not know all the answers and dont understand everything but nothing is more constant than knowing that he is LEADING ME, GUIDING ME and MOST IMPORTANT...........WALKING BESIDE ME and HELPING ME FIND THE WAY-or how to go forward in such a hard time. He knows what I am going through and it helps so much. After hearing/singing that song and feeling the comfort of the spirit it has made things easier to deal with and to be ok with the upcoming scary things that I need to do. I know he will be with me and for some reason is teaching me what I need to know to return back to him. I am thankful for such a simple but so powerful primary song and to be more appreciative of the powerful words!

Comments

Bryn said…
Karmann, your posts are always so beautiful. You say things in the best way and your spirit and testiony always amaze me. I know things are tough, but hang in there! You are not only a child of God but his daughter and He loves you so much! We need to really catch up, it's been forever since I've seen you!
August 7, 2009 at 9:18 AM
Jo Lynn said…
Karm, my heart is breaking...I so want you to be able to have a baby. This was a wonderful post and what comfort He gives in hard times and bless your heart because the two of you have endured so much. I hope you are no longer in pain? We love you guys so much and hope and pray each day for your sweet family.

It's not bad that you hated that song...I think a lot of children feel that same way. It's kinda sad, but each night when we start singing primary songs Savannah starts crying because she know's it's bedtime. :(

I love you so much Karm and please let me know if there is anything we can do for you!!!
August 7, 2009 at 11:35 AM
Drake Family said…
I know what you mean. I recently had those same thoughts with a Primary song (can't think of which one now). I am sorry to hear that you are in pain again with another loss. Just think HOW MUCH more you are going to love your little baby when you get it. I'm not sure either why you have had to endure so much with wanting a child. Hopefully things work out like you would like soon. Know that you are loved by many!!
August 7, 2009 at 5:24 PM
Taylors said…
Karmen, you are so sweet. I don't know what happened, but I want you to know that you're in my prayers.
August 7, 2009 at 8:53 PM
Hayley Nelson Potter said…
So true Karm, call me sometime, i would love to catch up and details. love you lots!!
August 9, 2009 at 7:37 AM
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