Here we Go!

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Sorry for the delay with getting the update of the next steps. I have to admit when I got the application and read through the whole packet it became VERY overwhelming and I really couldnt get my head around it. It all seemed too much and I felt like I didnt know where to even begin. We left for a mini vacation and I thought for sure I would sit down and plan it all out and have it set to go but that vacation has come and gone and I still had done nothing.....................

I found myself in a big slump last week with the heavy feeling over my head and kept telling myself if I want to get this going I need to sit down and start!!!! I would try but how do I begin this? I guess there is a little fear..................ok there was A LOT of fear! FEAR that I would fail................FEAR that what if no one comes to my Event................FEAR that we wouldn't raise enough money...................and then of course the WHY me!

To be honest with you through the last year I really haven't had any issues with the, why me! I think I might have suppressed it!  ;) It surely came out last week. I guess it is because I am human. Last Monday I cried myself to sleep praying for the ability to have the strength, courage, and mind set to get going. As the week continued on I continued to have that prayer in my heart. Friday I went to the temple as I was still needing his help. I know it might sound crazy that I have been struggling to get going! I know, I have this wonderful opprtotunity before me, why wouldnt I jump on it??!!

I think my own insecurities got the best of me. My self doubt and worry. Yup, its true! I try to put on the show that I am ALWAYS strong but it is not so! I guess I also thought maybe just maybe a miracle would happen and I wouldnt have to go through this. A good thought right?

Well this past weekend I was able to get away see an old college roommate and met a few new people as well. I believe it was not by accident we were together. Being with these girls allowed me to hear their struggles and trials and I said to myself..................I could NEVER have gone through that and they were the same to me.................

As we drove back from St. George I got this overwhelming feeling that YES you are suppose to get GOING and PLEASE start now! Monday night I found myself on the INCIID the heart website asking people on the forum for help. I couldnt get into the Scholarship Forum so I emailed the head lady that night. Tuesday morning I awoke with the name of who I should call and ask to hold our event at. They are a family in our old ward in Vegas and they have a back yard that they let couples do receptions.

Yesterday I got the email from the head lady that I should now be able to get into the forum. As I logged in yesterday morning I had this excitement wash over me and an urge that I hadnt felt. There were so many ideas, previous letters, forms, everything that I was worried that I would have to make up on my own was already there for my use. I got home from work and called our friends. They were ecstatic to hold our event at their home. The date is Friday September 28th @ 7. We are going to do a dessert event. I will be sending out a facebook event invite and for those that live in the area that dont have facebook I will be contacting them as well.

I awoke early this morning not being able to sleep but with the push to get this blog updated and to get my letter out with the website where people are able to go and donate.

Please dont hesitate to tell you family members, friends, co-workers and have them tell their family, friends, and co-workers.

This has been a humbling experience as I have had to let go of my " I can do it or How can I ask for people's money" PRIDE I guess would be the best way of saying it. It's not the easiest of times for everyone and I hate to be a burden!!!

If you can give a little it would be GREATLY appreciated. 

Part of our responsibility in receiving this gift of life from the organization is a fundraising commitment of $3500.  This tax deductible contribution is used in sustaining INCIID’s programs and services, message boards, and in particular the IVF Scholarship program.  All donations are tax deductible and you can even make them online 
here: https://www.inciid.org/inciiddonate.phtml
Checks should made out to INCIID, Inc. and sent to: PO Box 6836, Arlington, VA 22206  You can also FAX this information directly to INCIID here: (703) 379-1593

Even $5 or $10 would help. Whatever you can donate to INCIID in our names will be helpful.  Please write in  “Karmann and Ryan Wennerlind” in the memo part on your check or send a note of who it is for when donating online in the memo area.  Without this information INCIID won’t know to put it toward our fundraising goal. Click on the ONE TIME GIFT for donation.  As soon as we meet the $3500 dollars we will be matched with the doctor and will be able to get started right away!!!
                                   
I have a formal letter with the INCIID the heart letterhead with our signature to give to people with our story and the information to donate.  If you would like a copy just email me: K_electra20@hotmail.com I would love to send it to you so you can pass it out.

Words cant even begin to say how thankful I am for this opportunity and how thankful I am for wonderful friends and family. I pray that your donations will allow a miracle to happen. A miracle that Ryan and I have been waiting for for a LONG time. If God has taken me this far and allowed all of this to come into play I KNOW that the END to this LONG journey will be the ability to FINALLY be a MOM.

With Love,
Karmann





Comments

Celeste said…
It's true that last weekend was divinely orchestrated. I think each of us left with a huge increase in our ability to continue forward with our various struggles. God is good. I'm so excited for your event! It is going to be amazing! Love you!
August 22, 2012 at 9:13 AM
What Went Up, Must Come Down said…
Your story just breaks my heart! Whenever you guys gave your talk at church and I heard of your struggles, you have been in my prayers. I truly believe that Heavenly Father has a plan for each of us, it just doesn't always make sense as to what that plan is. My struggles are with weight loss. I feel that Heavenly Father brought the right people into my life, for me to be able to finally conquer this. Have faith! Keep your chin up!! You guys are in my thoughts a lot and I will continue to pray for you! And, you can count on us for sure to help with your event! :)
August 22, 2012 at 9:31 AM
Generational stitcher said…
I am so excited for you! You are in my prayers!
August 22, 2012 at 12:17 PM
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