EMULATE the SUNFLOWER

I met with the doctors almost 2 months ago. The proposed date for treatments to start was said to be April 30. At the time I thought, man that is a long time from now to wait! I dont want to wait that long! I want to get started now! The doctor reassured me that it would be here fast and that he needed the time to prepare for things. Today is April 30. The two months did go by fast just like the doctor said it would. I cant believe that it is here. However, today is not the day we start treatments. It is not the day that we go down the path of is it time? Today, April 30, is just a normal day. I dont have any patients today which is VERY unusual. Maybe it is just a tender mercy from Heavenly Father to let me just sit and feel his spirit. To let me know that he is aware of me and that it is ok. To comfort my heart as it is saddened by the fact that the day I thought we would start is here and yet we are still at a standstill of what to do. I have learned some good lessons...

It's 4:25 in the morning. I awoke to the impression to write my experience yet again that has occurred in the past few months and especially what has occurred in the past few days! I know with out a doubt that this whole experience I have truly been lead and guided by a LOVING HEAVENLY FATHER and with out the impressions of the HOLY GHOST and the ability to recognize and follow I would not be here at this moment with a COMPLETE PUZZLE! I am sorry that I have neglected my blog the past few months. I am not even sure if anyone still reads it anymore or is even interested in what I have to say. I have always wondered if you all get sick of my same old posts that are concerning the roller coaster of my journey to be a Mother. I apologize if that is the truth but then again I have felt impressed to share my journey and to tell my story so there has to be at least one of you that has benefited from my ups, downs, sideways, circles, and derailed coaster! This is going to be VERY LONG!...

Last year I did 2010 a Year in Review and want to do that again this year. I have been meaning to sit down and do it but just havent had the time. We got back from Chicago and I got a bad cold and then the stomach flu. Now that I am well and Ryan is at a Basketball game I am alone and ready to BLOG! JANUARY: Wow! Last year at this time I had just had the BEST talk with my doctor in Seattle and we were golden to start me on........... Yup. Shot in my be hind everyday. Ryan became my naughty nurse!! j/k Actually he was really great since I am absolutely terrified of needles I couldn't even look at them and the thought of giving me the shot by myself was very up setting. Ryan is not a fan of needles either but he was so good with doing it. The second needle in the picture is the size that they had to use because the serum was so thick for the estrogen. I did that every morning and then took tons of pills for progesterone. I also had to have another Hysteroscopy d...

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!! I cant believe that it is THURSDAY again and its already been a week since the DAY of FAMILY, GOOD FOOD, and a DAY to reflect on our BLESSINGS. Being back in Vegas this year we went to Seal Beach where we use to go when we lived in the South! Both Ryan and I were pretty excited to be there again and to be with his Aunt and Uncle. We left late Wednesday due to Ryan's school classes and got in around 12:30 at night. It was a funny feelng not being there the night before and going to the store to get the last minute stuff with his Aunt but I came prepared esepcially since Thanksgiving Meal can be a little challenging with the issues of Gluten. It was a great day to be outside playing on the burm so we grabbed the knee boards and had a blast going down. Ryan's cousin Ashlei has a little boy named Dash and he had a blast going up and down! We also brought out the dogs and had them play out on the sand! Later that night Ryan took it to another lev...

I tend to go on STREAKS of POSTS where it is mainly thoughts, experiences, and at times DEEP emotions. Today I thought I would LIGHTEN things up and do a POST of things that we have been up to lately. Ryan's cousin came into town from California with her boyfriend Ryan! We met them down at the strip to hang out and have some GOOD food! I have a harder times these days finding GOOD food without having to deal with my restrictions! When we lived in LV before it was one of Ryan and I's favorite thing was to go and do a different restaruant every weekend well, that has changed now due to my DIET. One of the BIGGEST downers is that we LOVE us a GOOD buffet but SADLY buffets are DOOMED for CROSS CONTAMINATION! BUT..........low and behold MY FAVORITE BUFFET in Las Vegas the WYNN BUFFET has GLUTEN items. I was a little skeptical because it HAPPENS to be VERY good but ALSO VERY expensive. We go there on special ocassions. I told Ryan I would check it out and IF it was worth the ...