Welcome to my story

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Hello everyone,

My name is Karmann Wennerlind. Thank you for taking the time to be here, read, and follow along with me as I share some deep thoughts and experiences on hard topics. I am not a professional, expert, or claim to know everything. I am just a girl who had a dream starting from the young age of 5 and it didn't go the way I had thought. I am just a girl who in the past 15 years has experienced hard issues that come with unexplained infertility. I am just a girl who has experienced 13 miscarriages. I am just a girl who knows the process of IVF both failed and successful. I am just a girl who experienced a failed adoption. I am just a girl who suffers from depression and has great anxieties. I am just a girl who has struggled to find my self worth. I am just a girl who has been beaten down, felt alone, and felt forsaken at times. I am just a girl who wants to share to the world that although I have been through all of these hard things; I have stood tall through it all. We all can stand tall through it all, with the support of each other, by showing love to one another. I pray I can be the support to you and be there for you through your hard journey.

The things I have been through are HUSH HUSH. We as a society are getting better at addressing, bringing light, and facing them in a more public way but it is still a STEEP mountain to climb.

A lot of times we feel shame, feel alone, feel like no one understands and that is why those of us who struggle with these topics keep our mouth shut. We hide our feelings. We put on the fake smile and pretend ALL IS WELL. The reality is though our insides are crumbling.

I want to share my voice. I want share my thoughts of how things were for me in the process and how I still continue to push through. I want to share what has helped me. I want to share the reality of what it is like to lose a baby after a baby after a baby. I want share the things to say and not to say to a person struggling. I want to share how I afforded IVF. I want to share how I fight depression each day. I want to share the real and the raw version of it all.

This blog is ten years old. I started writing this blog to journal our journey and our life as a couple. I am going to build off of this blog. Feel free to look through it and read past posts. I love to write. I love to help people. I pray this is a new beginning of accomplishing those two passions.

I am a witness that miracles do happen!!! My four year old boy and 2 year old baby girl are a witness that God lives. God is aware of his children in all that they are going through. Thank you again for joining me in on this journey. I have ideas of posts I am going to start with but if you have a question or want to me to discuss about any certain areas please feel free to ask. It is the VERY purpose I am doing this journey. If you know anyone who would benefit from my story please send them my way. I would love to help them in anyway.

All my love,
Karmann




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