THIS is US

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I awoke with this song in my head. It hit me as I was thinking of all of you and how it applies to us! ⠀ ⠀
🎶I am not a stranger to the dark. Hide away, they say. Cause we don't want your broken parts. I've learned to be ashamed of all my scars🎶
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In the trenches of my journey. I was ashamed of my scars. I was ashamed of me. My body was broken and I truly felt no one would love me because I was not a mom. I am married for + years and I should be a mom. Everyone else I knew or crack heads on the street are! Why not me? I wasn’t being told to hide away but I did hide away. I hid from family because I didn’t have grandkids, nieces or nephews. I hid from dear friends because they had families. I hid from church because it was family central. I felt ashamed for who I was. I looked in the mirror and hated who I saw! I felt worthless! I was ashamed of me and me was infertility! ⠀ ⠀
🎶 Another round of bullets hits my skin🎶
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The bullets of “When are you going to have kids?” OR, “Wow, you have your masters degree? Are you going to try to have a family?” OR “Oh, you just need to relax!” OR “We got pregnant without even trying!” OR family says, “they are expecting!” I could go on and on. I let those bullets hit me and they hit me hard. They left holes in my heart forever but it’s ok!⠀
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This next verse is for you! ⠀ ⠀
🎶Well, fire away 'cause today, I won't let the shame sink in. We are bursting through the barricades and reaching for the sun (we are Infertility Warriors) Yeah, that's what we've become 🎶
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In my 8th year I decided to not hide. I let it all out when people asked. I made mouths drop & uncomfortable situations. I broke through barricades. People knew I was an infertility Warrior! It’s what I had become and who I was!
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🎶 Don’t let anyone break you down to dust. I know that there's a place for us. For we are glorious! You are brave, you are bruised. It’s who we are meant to be, THIS IS US! 🎶 Infertility Warriors!

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