EMULATE the SUNFLOWER

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!! I cant believe that it is THURSDAY again and its already been a week since the DAY of FAMILY, GOOD FOOD, and a DAY to reflect on our BLESSINGS. Being back in Vegas this year we went to Seal Beach where we use to go when we lived in the South! Both Ryan and I were pretty excited to be there again and to be with his Aunt and Uncle. We left late Wednesday due to Ryan's school classes and got in around 12:30 at night. It was a funny feelng not being there the night before and going to the store to get the last minute stuff with his Aunt but I came prepared esepcially since Thanksgiving Meal can be a little challenging with the issues of Gluten. It was a great day to be outside playing on the burm so we grabbed the knee boards and had a blast going down. Ryan's cousin Ashlei has a little boy named Dash and he had a blast going up and down! We also brought out the dogs and had them play out on the sand! Later that night Ryan took it to another lev...

I tend to go on STREAKS of POSTS where it is mainly thoughts, experiences, and at times DEEP emotions. Today I thought I would LIGHTEN things up and do a POST of things that we have been up to lately. Ryan's cousin came into town from California with her boyfriend Ryan! We met them down at the strip to hang out and have some GOOD food! I have a harder times these days finding GOOD food without having to deal with my restrictions! When we lived in LV before it was one of Ryan and I's favorite thing was to go and do a different restaruant every weekend well, that has changed now due to my DIET. One of the BIGGEST downers is that we LOVE us a GOOD buffet but SADLY buffets are DOOMED for CROSS CONTAMINATION! BUT..........low and behold MY FAVORITE BUFFET in Las Vegas the WYNN BUFFET has GLUTEN items. I was a little skeptical because it HAPPENS to be VERY good but ALSO VERY expensive. We go there on special ocassions. I told Ryan I would check it out and IF it was worth the ...

I have been meaning to sit down and write for the past few weeks but just havent had the TIME to do it!! I have had a lot of thoughts running through my head that I have FELT I needed to write down and share. I am in awe that it is OCTOBER again! How did that happen? I swear this year has been so fast! I cant BELIEVE all that has transpired since last OCTOBER! I cant HELP but be so THANKFUL to my LOVING HEAVENLY FATHER for the BLESSINGS he has bestowed upon me in the PAST YEAR! For the PAST 3 years I have written a POST in OCTOBER that marks an ANNIVERSARY of Ryan and I trying to have a baby. My post this time is going to be  A LOT different than any other. When I think of this years # it doesn't HIT the CORE like it used to. It doesn't make me ANGRY, MAD, or SAD. I mean the # 7 should! 7 years of waiting for such a righteous desire should make those feeling be very apparent. Normally I would FOLLOW the path of: WHY ME? But not this time. As I ...

I will NEVER forget the phone call I got in January from my mom. I was headed to one of my clients in Eatonville Washington when my mom told me the news that my Grandma had pancreatic cancer. We all thought her pain and suffering from the November car accident when a  teenager ran a red light while texting and T-BONED my grandparents hitting her side of the car was the problem BUT  it was WAY more serious! I remember trying to HOLD back the tears of the thought of her leaving me! I tried to compose myself again to go into one of my families for their home visit but the mom knew right away from my face that I was upset. For some reason I am not good at faking my emotions. You know when I am upset by looking at me.  It took me most of the day to process it and be able to be composed enough to pick up the phone and call my grandma and grandpa. Like before in my post of her birthday party/reunion she told me how much she LOVED me, was PROUD of me, and th...

It's been over a month since I sat down to BLOG again. I really hate it when I lose track of time and dont sit down to write but then another part of me feels so OVERWHELMED at the thought of sitting down and taking the time to write! The past month has been VERY busy VERY crazy but VERY good! It has been so nice to have Ryan home! Even though the trip to get here was VERY eventful I am so thankful he got here safe! The first 14 hour drive from Seattle to Provo went well it was the stretch from Prove to Vegas that took 14 hours when it should have taken 7. The PENSKE truck broke down outside of NEPHI and Ryan, his dad, and Haydeez were stuck on the side of the freeway for 7 1/2 hours. Here is Haydeez passed out in the back of the truck while they wait for the new one to arrive  They had to bring a new truck so Ryan and his dad unloaded the already loaded truck to the other truck and then were on their way. Our ward here in Vegas is WONDERFUL. The boys rolled in at 1...